i written for you my Pillow

I think I love you. I think about you every second of every day. When I fall asleep, my dreams are about you. When I wake up, I look at the empty pillow next to me and wish you were there looking into my eyes. I wish I could tell you how I really feel. I would have told you by now, but I didn’t, and now I’m afraid it’s too late.

If we were already together and I hurt you, I’d beg you for one more chance to make you fall in love with me. But the fact is I never had you,I don’t think I ever will. I hate the way I feel but at the same time love it so much. But the only way I will be fine is if I am with you,

I wish I could tell you but I don’t want to scare you away from me, and I would rather see you and not be with you then to never see you again, because seeing you every day is a gift from God that I was blessed with. I guess I will never know how you feel unless I confess my love to you. Who knows - you might feel the same about me. I really think I love you.

My heart has already found it's way you. I want you and no one else. You mean everything to me. I think we should try and make this work. You have to know you're the one, and only one I want. Not only are you perfect for me, you're the perfect friend and I hope we can and will be more. I could never ask for better then what we have had. I am hoping you're feeling the same way because my heart is set on you.

I am writing this to confess that I am in total love with you, and I don't know what I would do without you. My heart is yours to keep. You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me and I never want to let go. Every moment we share together I could never forget, and I am simply hanging by a that moment, waiting until the next time I can see you .I love you.

No one in this world knows the feeling that I get when I see you. They have no idea about what you get my body to do when I hear your name or hear that sweet soft voice of yours. Nobody has ever made me feel like the way you make me feel and that is such a crazy feeling. It feels like I just want to grab you and be in your arms forever and forever and never let go.

Every time I think about you, it gives me more and more strength with which to carry on my life. It makes me happy to be alive knowing that you have came into my life and all I know is that I want to be with you!

part of my life

for now i just want to share my life with reader . . .



q mau berbagi tantang apa yang saya rasakan . . . dan tak harus berbuat bagaimana untuk perasaan yang saya alami ini . . . now i just feel giulty . . . giulty for all has i do . . . for all about my feeling . . .
yach benar kalau saya saat ini merasa sangat bersalah . . . sangat . . . dan sangat . . .
saya merasa bersalah karena telah mempermainkan perasaan perempuan stelah saya dipermainkan perempuan . . . saya takut perbuatan saya ini menjadi boomerang buat perasaan saya kali ini . . .
perasaan bersalah itu muncul karena saya takut akan saya akan kehilangan orang yang saya sayangi saat ini . . . saya takut tercampakan . . . saya takut kehilangan untuk kedua kalinya . . . saya takut orang yang saya sayangi saat ini pergi jauh dan mempermainkan saya seperti saya mempermainkan banyak perempuan . . .

perasaan ini begitu kuat muncul karena saya tidak ingi kejadian dimana saya tercampakan wanita terulang kembali . . . sungguh saya sangat merasa terpukul saat itu . . saya merasa hampa . . . namun perasaan itu hilang saat saya telah mempermainkan banyak wanita . . . hingga saat ini . . . saya benar-benar merasakan jatuh cinta lagi . . . jatuh cinta pada seorang perempuan . . .
Entah tau apa sebabnya saya begitu menyukainya saat saya pertama kali melihatnya . . . sosoknya begitu menarik dimata saya . . . meskipun jujur kalau dia bukan tipe wanita yang saya dambakan . . . ( setelah saya dipermainkan wanita maksudnya ) . . .

On me she's look like an Angel . . . Give bright ,give me light , and give me much more to me with she's look at me . . . She's so influence on me . . . i thing i'm in love on second time . . . she's absolutely make me melted . . . although I pretend tough cheerful and pleasant in front of her . . .
but . . . but really in my heart I feel crushed. destroyed. and could not see his eyes . . .

dan selain itu saya merasa bersalah karena orang yang saya cintai saat ini adalah mantan pacar sahabat saya . . . dan perasaan saya ini telah terpendam sejak lama saat dia berstatus pacar sahabat saya . . . Apakah saya salah memendam rasa untuk sahabat saya . . . yang saya tau bahwa dia mendua . . . Perasaan yang saya anggap bodoh sampai saat ini . . . but . . . love can lie . . . and i sure this is not fake and temporary feeling . . .

dan apakah saya salah menyatakan cinta padanya . . . ? apakah saya sayalah mengatakan perasaan terpendam ini . . . apakah saya salah atas semua saya lakukan . . . ?
dan jika yang saya lakukan itu benar-benar memang salah . . . saya berharap ini tdak memberikan dampak pada perasaan saya kali ini . . .

my first write . . .

ini adalah tulisan saya yang pertama untuk saya cantumkan di Blog saya . . .
entah itu ada yang baca atau nggak . . .
yang penting saya telah membikin blog untuk di publikasikan
agar semua orang mengerti akan saya , lingkungan saya , dan hal sebagainya yang telah saya buat . . . .

I Love so much for this blog. . .
I hope can be great for me and other people who's read this . . .